April 24, 2015
What do you think of when you hear the word kingdom? Personally I don’t know if I had ever really thought of it. I guess I would think of heaven, if someone would ask me. Even if I thought of heaven my image of it would be so limited and honestly somewhere I don’t think anyone would want to spend eternity in if it was up to my own imagination to create it.
This week we learned of kingdom and where it is and how we could miss it. Kingdom is actually here and now, not just a place we might go if we believe. But, because we believe we are called to bring the kingdom whatever we do and wherever we go.
I get asked often, after God soften my heart and told me to Love Todd and fight for my marriage, “Are you happy?” or they would say “As long as you are happy.” I have learned that I really don’t want to just be happy. In my season of the storm I can say I was not happy but Gods presence was so real I now long to feel it like I did and the dependence I let Him have.
The miracle God did in restoring our marriage and bringing Todd back makes me cry just thinking how good He is to this little family. I am learning forgiveness is not easy but is a simple concept of just love. I do still have fear it could happen again, but that is not from God. In reality it could happen to anyone, but my security, hope, assurance can only be in God. He is the only one that won’t fail us nor foresake us. So everyday I am trying to choose love wich is God for my security and identity.
I thank God for my Husband and who he is. He is the most courageous man I have ever met. As I am learning more and more about Gods love I have so much love for Todd, and am seeing him for how God made him. Brave, strong, and a man after Gods own heart. Thank you Lord for blessing me and that we can bring Kingdom together to this world.
If I am called just to be happy I don’t think I want to be. I choose to live for Christ and have life, peace, and fullfillment by the blood of Jesus our Messiah. What an exciting life we can live following Jesus.
Trying mud pie
Teagan really started to crawl today. But this was a few days ago trying to teach her!
Source: Todd and Jessica Elrod